2day finalli updated after soooooo long…
2day is the start of sch after 3 weeks of holiday. Did not did much mostly is working and also watching Taiwan drama.
Dramas that I had watch so far are:
(1) WHY WHY LOVE
(2) WEI XIAO PASTA
(3) HEI TANG MA QI DUO
(4) ER MO ZAI SHEN BIAN
(5) KA FEI WANG ZI YI HAO DIAN
But now quite interested in Hebe and He Jun Xiang de dou nu yao bu yao heard it was quite nice. Quite busy when start of school need 2 study and work but still quite fun. Had a gathering during the holis wif class 1e5 people happy 5 yrs friendship wif u guys.
These 7 friends consists of Amanda (yiting), Angela (huixin), Elhannah (yiting), Emily (yuping), Jocelyn (huiting), De Xing and HAN RONG…...

I REALLI HATE MYSELF NOW (ALOTTTTTT)
I HATE TO CRY BUT WHY DOES IT HAPPEN ALL E TIME EVERYDAY N NITE
WHY DO I HAVE TO CRY FOR HIM
KNOW THAT IS NOT WORTH IT BUT I JUS CRY

WHYWHYWHYWHY????????

‘dun let someone become a priority in your life when you are just an option in theirs’ this is a code I heard today from someone….
Ohhhhh ppl …. Really miss u guys, I m back from my trip went to KL so much fun but little shopping nia had not enough of shopping liao too bad not enough time but went to KLCC which is famous by the twin towers. Went to the Topshop/man there actually it makes no difference. But bought a few stuff. After that went to my aunt’s hse to stay she has such a big hse lor 2 storey terrace and owns a car business…. Super rich and always goes to JAPAN but she promised to bring mi there when I have my nx holi hahahaa…. After that she drove us to Perak where my grandma lives it was a 3 hr journey OMG sat all e way can u imagine. How I miss my grandma stayed there 4 2 nites then jus nice my ah ma’s kampong was celebrating the god’s birthday then there was opera it was so scarce to see as hardly went back will meet this festival de. On wed itself went back to KL and again e sittin practice starts again then went to haf Malaysia’s secret recipe and then took coach home but KL jam during a normal was already very bad so wad will happen on a sat, sun or even a public holi I cant imagine n don wanna try that not fun at all. The coach lasted for stupid damn long 6+++ hrs in e end reach home at 11pm. Was won out totally….

heyy ppl...
just thought i drop by to updated u guys...
preparing to malaysia now (departing in 1 hr's time)
how i miss my grandma will be able to see her soon...
yesterday was morning shift
went shopping wif Carine...
she really super funny lah... OMG
we took sunglass pic at Charles and Keith n she feels bad but we are not doing any crime also...

WELL GTG NEED TO OVER OUT LE...
TAKE CARES PPL AND DON'T MISS MI AH...
HAHAHA....

(WILL MISS UR DE) =p

Sadder and sadder by every day, maybe disappearing may helps as no wan will ever notice mi not around… everyone jus simply hates and dislike mi disappearing seems the easier way out and that no wan understand and cares about mi, and they don’t even bother to do so…

Ppl will always think about them first but I think that this is selfish as they only think about how they feel and not knowing how others feel where by isn’t this a world of caring and sharing????

I m starting to get disgusted by e disgusting act of ppl and they really makes ppl wanna vomit by why why why????
I had been lost once again and cant seems to find a way out but nobody seems to care leaving mi there…

Qns: it Christmas about granting pl wishes
Ans: it turns out to be Christmas is all a lie =(

Today mood wasn’t so good after all, jus cried, tears flow, numb, heart had died.

I really don’t feel like I m mi anymore I m like a person without feeling anymore, crying has become my habit, heart has gone numb…

Where is the old mi??? I had been looking for mi in this world but it seems that I m lost… what will be my next step to my next road, my next choice???? Asking myself a lot of questions which I cannot answer them so wad is the point of asking???

Once someone keeping saying that I kept asking a lot of whys and hoped that I won’t asked them anymore…

Eyes were swollen and red but I felt nothing how I wished that someone could really understand how I feels but sad no say no one does even my family. I felt I was the only one who was abandoned and left behind; everyone has throw mi aside prevent mi from keeping up with them…

I think I rather choose to be emo n not a happy Angela no one does appreciate and when I left you I should have thought that I will never be happy I know it is not worth it but somehow I stll hurts badly like my heart was torn into million pieces.

Let mi tell you a story: once a gal was happy and was everyone’s laughing stock but she don’t mind cause she always keep herself in high spirits and also thinks that others are more important than her, but one day she found out that she was being taken granted by everyone and decide not to be happy anymore. =( so wad she puts others in the first place rather than herself no wan really does cherish all they could do was to hurt her badly.

Sometimes I felt that I really hate myself a lot but ppl told mi that if I were to hate myself how would I expect others to like but I came to a conclusion that nobody will ever like mi… NEVER EVER…

I had already tried to learn to like myself but hating is easier that loving I tried but afterall nothing good will come out. So wad if I m nice so wad if I do everything I needed to… everything is 2 much for mi I m really very tired… I jus wanna rest…