OMG I HAD FALLEN IN LOVE WITH SUNFLOWER...

Twice in this week cry badly due to channel u's show:

(1) on christmas night 11.30pm- absolute boyfriend movie

(2) just now 9.30pm - 向日葵的约定 (The Promise)

Side note:

Someday I also want to see this sunflower field with you...

P.S those who watched, what do you think?

What a lonely little christmas...
Bet everyone is outside celebrating wif Bfs, Gfs, and frends...
But for mi?? None..
Where my frends go to.....
Man I jus hate it....

Hmm.. where should I start ?? happy things or sad things ??

Ever wondered why people surroundding you are so happliy attached

whereas u are just alone?

Ever wondered why attached people grumble all the time but

they don't that u envy them?

Ever wondered why the person you liked always talk to u

just because they want to know more about the person from u?

Ever wonder why u always help others

but when it comes to u need help from they, it always turns out to be a disappointment.

Anyway now moving on to so happy happenings:

I am already not sure what is happy, real or fake but still I am just glad that FYP is finally over and no more stress and tense up bodies anymore. I can't imagine that they will not be any FYP anymore and it's other people's turn to get stressed up for FYP.

Well my month was fruitful though, had quite a few outings with my galfriends (well will update more abt it), outings with fyp members and lastly just now went for a movie session wif yu shu... I just can't resist movies.....

photos will be up next but onli part of it due to consolidation of the photos not complete =)

I M SICK!!!!!!


fever + cough + sore throat + flu

Verse 1:He is approaching..from a far far far distance
how am i to express my shaking heart?
He.....Stole my heart from the very start and gave me an illness that i cannot recover from...

Chorus:I want to become a flowerpot I pray all the time
I want to become a flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a wordor expect anything
From time to time I'll receive his smile and careness
And just watch his sleeping face

Verse 2:He's leaving very far far far away
How am i supposed to soothethese falling tears?
He...Stole my heart from the very start
And gave me an illness that i cannot recover

Chorus:I want to become the flowerpot
I pray all the time
I want to become the flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a wordor expect anything
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness
And just watch his sleeping face
I want to become the flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a wordor expect anything
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDEd3724ozc

Obviously you mind yet you keep on pretending you don't mind
Your actions are always showing you mind
How can I trust you when you are always acting so fake infront of me
I hate that you don't talk to me straight in the face
I don't need a friend who minds about talking and gossiping by other people

Current mood: disappointed, angry

Timeline:
Last week schedule:
Monday- Fyp + went out wif Prislin, Cecilia and Jac Jac
Tuesday- School
Wednesday- School + work
Thursday- School + work
Friday- School + work
Saturday- work + celebrating xinning b'dae till 10 am (sunday)
Sunday- slpt for 2 hrs + shopping for jac jac b'dae present + celebration at her hse till late
Note: I had to travel from boon lay back to pasir ris (JAC JAC YOU STAYED TOOO FAR LE HOR)

Coming up (12/10/09)-(18/10/09):
Monday- FYP + work
Tuesday- School +work
Wednesday- School +work
Thursday- School +work
Friday- School +work
Saturday- work
Sunday- dance + work

Finalli, back from a series of crazy happenings in Korea.
Took the most scariest ride of my life: the T-express
The T Express, debuted in 2006, is the first wooden roller coaster and the largest of any kind in South Korea. The T Express is the 6th longest wooden coaster in the world at 5,838 feet long. It is also the steepest, with the first drop inclined at 77 degrees.

=> Characteristics & Records of T Express (2008)
South Korea's first wooden roller coaster
World's steepest wooden roller coaster (77 degrees)
Drop : 57m (7th in the world)
Attraction time : 3min 00sec (the longest in Asia, 7th in the world)
Air time : 12 times (the most air times in South Korea)
Altitude : 56m (the highest in Asia, 3rd in the world)
Maximum Speed : 104km/h (the fastest in Asia, 8th in the world)
[+] Gravity Force : 4.5g
[-] Gravity Force : -1.2g

Crazy isn't it?

There are so many things that I had done till I couldn't remember them all but the most that I had learnt and appriciate the most is the communication and also spending time with the people during the trip.

OMG ..
Hello people I am back after soooo long of rest and preparation of a new life...
There are so many movies I wanna watch...
(1) The Time Traveller's Wife
(2) G-Force
(3) Coco Before Chanel
(4) Dance Flick (watched)
(5) Scandal's Makers
(6) I Love You, Beth Cooper
(7) Year 1
(8) The Proposal (2 times)

Crying in the late nite shouldnt be something I should do (but the fact is i am doing it rite now, in this second)
I realli cannot believe that why am I always facing so much upsets and so much obstacles. Compared to other people's lives they are far more luckier than mi jus that they still didn't realised and take it for granted.
Wanting sth is so hard
Often people have something they will ask for more, but compared to me do they actually know that I yearn for the things they already had.
Iszt really so diffcult... I jus dun understand why it is so unfair

P.S Losing control.... crying nites

Life is really like a big whole mess rite now.
Realising that want I had now was just a lie and nothing else more
Once thought that it was a dream come true, but it turns out to be a foolish thinking
I don't wanna walk alone but it jus seems that I dun haf a choice at all
I dun wanna believe everything good that happens s true anymore
Cause in the end it will be like tearing it me apart to know the true that it is not good at all.
I dont wan it anymore, i really cant take the heartbreak anymore
The price I had paid to take this heartbreak is too much
Crying rite now, I dun wanna waste my tears again
People say that a girl's tear is precious but I dont even think mine was
Its jus like a loose tap that no one will bother to repair in and jus leave the water to flow
I jus donno what to do anymore
the world doesnt stop moving jus because I am sad

P.S Is what I am asking too much??

OMG... I am sick again (&%&$^#$#$&*^*&%#)

This time is still the same:
Down with flu, cough, sore throat and abit of fever.
Leads to changing of voice and also completely losing my voice
Solution is drinking of more water.... and also eating medicine and plenty of rest (which cannot be done) =(

Yoz back after the watermelon post.... this time round found sth else funnier but I guess now most you guys might had seen it before:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=weIbm3m-Xbo&feature=related


OH HELLO. :D - By ANG SU FANG (currently in lad now for fyp), we are down wif 3 people today including mi....

So sad- my blink ear piece spoil le...

(err.. can see the distorted part??)

10 thing I did last week:

(1) Last week of school

(2) Collection of my 'O' level certificate at Buona Vista
(3) Watched Night at the Musuem 2 (Dum Dum I wan Gum Gum, Dum Dum did you bring mi Gum Gum)

(4) Went Timbre at clake quay to see live band performance

(5) Brought qian yu to Eski bar at Boat quay (super cool n cold)

(6) Went lavender to make my new passport (still in processing)

(7) Went shopping with Kevin (cheers to 3 yrs of friendship but he kept claiming that we knew each other only for a day--- he is such a pig)

(8) Went out wif FYP team mates to eat secret recipe (woohoo nice cakes)

(9) Old habit... (supper at cineleisure/scape park)

(10) Lastly of all as usual, WORK

(a random picture of my carebear and classmate elmo =) )

(look at the size of the wedges... was eating at TRCC)

Side note- btw gt realised my new fringe??

P.S what is the definition of love

watermelon, Watermelon, WATERMELON:::::::::::

I was reading an article online and saw this----->

And main introduction of the day======>

A store in Fukuoka is selling heart-shaped watermelons:

The unusual fruit is the invention of Hiroichi Kimura, a farmer from Kumamoto, and his wife. The couple said they had tried for three years to create the perfectly heart-shaped fruit, which they say symbolizes their passion for farming and their affection for each other.
Apparently they are being sold for a price 15,750 yen ($160) each.[via JapanSoc dot com]

Commenting (in process):

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

WHAT 160 bucks for a watermelon

I can do alot of things with that money hahaha...

Do people realli buy it?????

Well there is really such thing of different shapes of watermelon as shown in all the pictures go read the link I attach below:

http://www.tofugu.com/2008/08/15/japanese-face-shaped-watermelon-and-other-weird-shapes/

Must READ hor...

All my reseARCH.....

Will time realli fade things away???

Hui Xin's schedule for tuesday and wednesday:

Tuesday:
School - 10 am till 4pm
Fyp- 4.30pm till 6pm
Work(stock take)- 10pm till 8am (thats wad Sarina says)

Wednesday:
Work(stock take)- end at 8am
Fyp- 11am and onwards


Remarks: Not sleeping for 1 nite

Healing in progess

P.S when will I be able to let go...

Hey sorrie people was MIA-ing till now...
Totally in a down down mood now.....
This is the low period of my life now, donno when will all this sadness, emo-ness end
Seeing people happily walking makes mi wonder when will that all happen on mi too
Behind every laughter is every drop of tears, can't help that they will keep on dropping without notice...

There are so many things I wanna let go, but I just keep on trying ,
Its jus that they would not go off, jus like super glue stick on mi
But I guess back to basics, let nature goes its way bah
Am I realli that easy to be forgotten,or am I jus a piece of glass which people won't even look
Am iszt that I am jus a piece of worthless art which is not even up to grade to admire on.

What is love:

Given by Wikipedia=>
Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. The word love is both a verb and a noun. Love is not a single feeling but an emotion built from two or more feelings. Anything vital to us creates more than one feeling, and we also have feelings about our feelings (and thoughts about our feelings). This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

Enjoy the music video (really like this song):

Counting down to 6 days
looking forward????

Most dramatic situation happen today at work:

Settings:
Venue: Forever 21
Time: between 8.30pm to 9.00pm
People involved: All of forever 21 staff (which is basically all gals), a cockroach and customers that were present
Objective: To kill the cockroach and shift it to the dustbin
Tools that were used: Newspaper and shelltox (mind the spelling)

It happens as it goes :
I was at the fittings at the second level of the shop when the big cockroach appear and the shop floor. One of my collegue was chasing it out using the insecticide but to no avail the cockroach came running back..... All of the staffs were screaming including mi stare at it not knowing wad to do. There was this customer who tried to step on it but unsuccessfully the cockroach onli turned upside down.... So I jus went down from the fitting room, took a pile of newspaper and dropped on it. After that I shift the dead corpse using the newspaper and throw inside the dustbin....
End of Story....

Conclusion:
Its was sth big for mi as this was my first time doing this, I didnt know where all my guts come from to do so. Usually when you see the cockroach I will be out of sight, but this time I did so much..... I was a break of record I was super uber scared lah but anyway I am still scared of cockroach...


well (end of post)
-_-"

This song is by Katy Perry, I find it quite touching as the storybehind it was quite sad.......

After 9 more hours I will be leaving for Malacca.......
So be mentally prepared for my posts when I return to Singapore

=)

Super excited
Donno whether can slp mah???


P.S what people have, you might not have it

Rainy days belongs to a gal
Now is pouring super heavily outside
it felt like as if her emotions follows the weather but sadly to say she is spending this nite alone
So what she is scared of thunder and lightning
All she can do was to cover her eyes and ears
hoping to lie to herself that there was no thunder and lightning at all

A gal staring into blank space hoping to know the answer she is looking for
but she than aimlessly walks out of the question she is looking for but still hoping to find the answer one day. Tears can be seen in her eyes, she has too many emotion baggauges to be put down. No one listens to her, she keeps everything inside only still showing a smile telling everyone she is alrite.
People taking her for granted, neglecting how she feels. What she did was to help others n treat people well, but who would ever think of treating her well too. She believes that no matter how much a person gives she should not ask back cause people are selfish, they wont do it.
Even she disappears or went missing no one will look for her.... So.... the her life story continues

Was stuck in RP's lab for the whole in working on experiments and preparing samples for FYP
Got another 3 more sets of papers consist in total abt 90 pages to be read and due nx thurs's meeting....

Well, its cold right now got to go bath...
Photos will be post ASAP

P.S Will it be e same if I had nv fallen for...
tidous
=(

Back from donno nowhere...
Feel so stressed and worn out this 2 weeks but I guess after a smile will be jus fine

Had a couple of movies this 2 weeks:
(1) The other end of the line
(2) Marley and mi
(3) He's just not that into you
(4) The curious case of benjamin buttons

Yet to watch:
(1) Role models
(2) Slumdog millionaire
(3) Confessions of a shopholic
(4) Hotel for dogs
(5) Push
(6) Taken

Had been fyp-ing and working plus the dance lessons at studio wu.
Went to studio wu wif prislin for hip hop dance lesson, it was damn fun but totally worn out after that meet up wif Nasyitah, haven seen her for about 1 year and 2 mths since we both start together at Forever 21. Totally miss her.... hahaha
Had photo shooting session in the train wif andy and rinn, we climb up the seats and did alot of photo shooting....

Well had been studying since last nite, guess i need to get back to study now, ppt for fyp will be due tomorrow and I still gt 4 papers not yet to be read.

See ya real soon,,,
tata

P.S what will I do it I would have to gif you up...

smiles (photos will be in the next post) =)

Emo-ing
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Emo-ing
Emo-ing
Emo-ing
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Dunno why this week is emo week for mi.....
Its raining season for mi
Ever wonder wad is so bothering....
Haiz
Did most of the crying this week (in fact doing it rite now)

I just realised one thing that from e start of secondary school until now somehow or rather e guys i like or interested will be interested or like my frend....
Which tends to make mi the invisible one infront of them no matter how much I do
Its jus so tiring...
Is really finding the wan i like who will pay attention to mi so diffcult
I could jus gif up trying
As I noe no matter what I do will be the same
I feel like forgotten, someone forgot to pick mi up jus abandon mi here....
I just could not show that I am sad infront of people, all I can do is hide and let it all out
Having wonder when will someone be there (but I noe there wont be)
Jus realised whenever I need someone they are not there
I jus wanna keep running and leave
Envy the people surrounding mi
Another mood affecting post pls don read if you can't be bothered

P.S Why am I being treated different?????

If onli I could have love too

Appearing again after not updating for abt 8 days... I guess that I m realli that busy in alot of stuff....

Woke up 2day super uber early to blog.... (its currently 7:10M NOW)

AND TODAY'S VALENTINE'S DAY

WELL TO ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE INCLUDING MI----> HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

And I had found out that there are two dates that we might have celebrate too:

+White Day (March 14) - similar to Valentine's Day
+Black Day (April 14) - celebration day for single people

Well I think that its a day of giving and also receiving and the most traditional objects given and being received is actually red roses and CHOCOLATES (omg that is my favourite)... hahaha

Back to recapping:

Been doing alot of things this whole week

(1) Done kbox session wif w54b peeps (was onli 3 person concert as zhi hui went to Genting)

(2) Mostly work on this week

(3) Playing lan at THE CATHAY and CINELEISURE (recently we were hooked up on a game, will intro to u guys ltr =P)

(4) Went to army market to look look and see see

OMG i just realised that I had so much to blog and this might be another uber long post...

Introducing to u guys about this game or most probably not as i seen many people playing it.

Was hooked up by this game and Me, Andy and Rinn kept going to either THE CATHAY or CINELEISURE to play this game.

The game is super, highly addictive and ALOT OF SCREAMING AND SHOUTING HAD TO BE DONE OR HAD BEEN DONE ALREADY.

Due to time constrain I decided to cut short this post....

Need to go and bath le and prepare for work, will be back to update more stories =) will keep u guys updated.

Bathing time.....................................................................................

P.S Today will be wearing red at work and also 1000 roses will be given out today in my wrkplace (hope u guys got one)

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

SMILE

If changing will do the trick why not go ahead and change for the better.

Trust means to believe. I trust you, means I have no doubt in my mind about your honesty, integrity and credibility. No relationship can survive without trust. How to develop and keep the trust in a relationship forever, because as soon as the trust breaks, the relationship breaks. Trust is the foundation on which a relationship is built. If you don’t trust a person, howsoever you may love him/her, your relationship will not survive, because you have no trust in him/her.



A random paragraph someone who has jus remind mi ...



Back for more blogging, sorrie not for updating due to my stupidity-------> FORGETTING OF MY PASSWORD THAT I CANNOT LOGIN MY LAPPY FOR THAT WHOLE WEEK =_=

ISZT THAT -______________-" ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ



So here's my CNY:
On the EVE-
early in the morning woke up to visit ye ye at mandai....
saw nai nai and other auntie and uncle plus my cousins
after praying we all wen to yishun to eat lunch (yum yum)
xiao shu than drive us home...
after that took a 3 hr nap as i was too tired....
meet Andy to buy yu sheng (thanks for the discount)
Lastly, woohoo my favourite part -----> steamboat (omg lah my mum boiled e soup and wah all the ingredients make my hungry while i m blogging again)
was tv time after that and papa gave mi and didi ang bao $$$ (ya shui qian)


First DAY-
woke up than bath and dress into my new year clothes
then headed to nai nai's hse to bai nian,
every year the visitiing places for us are always that same
after that was visiting the temple at toa payoh
lastly, was papa's friend's hse as the last stop =)


Second DAY-
early morning went to auntie's hse a few blocks away (that was e last hse we visited)
in the afternoon met Andy for lunch at a japanese resturant at E!Hub
jus before the movie seesion we had around 1hr plus of spare time so we decide to go to that arcade (and we played the touch screen thing and para para till we gt muscle cramps), we than took the tickets we earn and change into chocolate and a toy car
that was movie session (went to catch the wedding game)
after movie was pool session, I was super uber clever did alot of tricks which cnnt be done
while accompanying Andy for the bus, we called Ryan up to talk rot (hahaha) dramatic situations again
headed home afterwards.

Third DAY-
starting of work

Updating of recently movie sessions:
(1) Bride wars - Andy and Ryan
(2) The wedding game- Andy
(3) All Well End Well 2009- Andy and Ryan

Finalli Rinn came back from Malaysia, hahaha Andy sorrie to make you put in so much effort to bring her back =P
Yesterday nite went to eat cake with Andy at cafe cartel but sadly Andy's favourite cake and another cakes were all sold out so we had sandwiches... (Andy describle it heavenly)

Things not done:
(1) Kbox session wif Andy
(2) Kbox session wif w54b peeps
(3) Collecting of IC wif Rinn
(4) Watching of Love Matters
(5) Dance lesson wif Prislin

well, it getting real late, gonna end the post here

P.S seeing you like this, I dont noe why I am hurting as well

Emo songs makes mi cry -________________-

One of the photos took wif grace and zeehwee (think is last day of sch, but still got alot of photos yet to come)

AMENDED POST: ( Jus for Andy)

I just haf to do this for Andy if not he will jus keep saying that my post is all about Ryan,
Well Rinn left for Malaysia already =( that makes Mi and Andy starting to miss her already
2day is Polymer and Composite, so Dawn actually treat us pizza for lunch (how sweet is that as initially I didn't really expect she will do that)
Currently talking to Andy and our super uber dramatic bff issue.. Darn he and Ryan always sour mi....

Andy says: My hair is Atrocious, No better words to describle it
I say: My Voice is Atrocious, No idea how could it be describle

This post is full of randomness... so dun bother
but basically its about the parts I had left out in the previous post...

P.S back to old, usual self

(one of the saturday nite with e two of them... lol)

credits to Andy for photo....

Bye

Nites

Sad songs make me emo....................................................

People I'm back again but this time round down with fever and sore throat... losing of voice again..

Well re-capping most of post most of them had indicate that I was sick...
Last few days/week was really tough for mi to get by but as time goes by I was getting better

Had been shopping for CNY stuff, so here's e list I had shopped and bought:
(1) Checkered dress (light green, blue and white) wif a zip infront- $30
(2) Super uber big bag - $20
(3) A pair of River Island shoes - $50
(4) A black belt with sequins - $15

Not sure if I should buy accessories mah, cause I was afraid might not have the time for another shopping trip.. .. --__--
Had a usual day today at school it was the second day of school le, hangout with frend at the library, then bump into Ryan then he was laughing at my voice and saying that I sing Ah Du's songs will be nice (hahahaha)
Try the videocall with ryan.. I was damn toot lah, I did not even try that before and was sooooo amazed by it...
hahahahaha.. what a toot am I (^(00)^)~

Looking forward to CNY, going to visit grandpa at Mandai this Sunday, so long never go see him le.. miss him the day since he was gone...
CNY atmosphere>>> CNY cookies>>> CNY clothes>>> CNY shopping
OMG everyone is jus so into CNY, AND I AM SUPER UBER LOOKING FORWARD TO IT...

P.S If only I could reverse time to continue where we had stopped from....

Signing off (=)

New and the second post of the year.... I noe I had been like MIA for donno how long or who knows how long might it be.

Having to know that fact that I had left
And gone
And will never return
How much it hurts had all been hidden in a bottle

A brand new start of the year and Chinese New Year in coming in a week's time
haven bought clothes yet...
OMG I NEED NEW CLOTHES
Tons of photo not uploaded and tons of events not updated...
But recent ones was starting of school and also doing of volunteerary working by painting old folk's hse (refferring to the 1 room flat at redhill and also telok blangah)

Recently just finish watching Bu Liang Xiao Hua, I think that the ending was rather fantasy but was super uber sweet.... >.<
Starting on wo de yi wan mian bao.. the storyline was rather funny and also cute in a sense...

My friends had been grumbling of mi not updating and also uploading of their photos and recently had alot of movie session wif Ryan and Andy, thx to them for being so patient to wait for mi after work... (hahahaha)

Watched movies (currently):
(1) Bedtime stories
(2) Ip man
(3) Bolt

Movies coming up:
(1) Bride Wars
(2) ALL'S WELL END'S WELL 2009
(3) The wedding game
(4) Confessions of a shopperholic

Sub post:
So many things had happen in such a short period of time, I almost can't take the blow
everything that had happened was jus like watching a movie
never been so lonely and s tearful before
Had always been telling myself that I had to walk this path alone..

I feel so all alone...
I jus hope u can understand not onli u feels that way...



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P.S I jus need someone to be there to let mi lean on....


Coming up: Next post will be all my updates posts