Haiz…
This is all I can say now, 2day’s mood is still as bad but is even worse than ever. All my friends are busily dating and going out with their other friends so here I am at home doing nothing but feeling quite pathetic hmm, questions running through my head (why would ppl wanna ask you go out, what makes you think that they wanna ask you out, u’re a nobody to them.) Loneliness had conquer all of my heart and mind, people no longer cares about as they had a life they want to live.
Sign,
Now I guess nothing matters to me anybody and always people look for me for reasons and not just purely they wanna find mi. why does this had to happen to mi , I guess I am just a transaction or a helping hand and not a frend to them. What has all this got to mean it is so unfair to me why people has got all they wanted money, career, boyfriends, frends. Well I had to say I had gt nothing so I guess this is the destiny I hold…
P.S donno why tears fall from my eyes again =(
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Heyhey ppl,
Seriously I donno why I am not in good mood 2day. I know that the whole world is busy so being alone is another easy thing for mi not that it is that easy to overcome loneliness is like people has their stuff to do and they can’t be with mi all the time. But I really don’t know how long more I can take this I really felt like giving up cause I really cannot stand living in pain.
I am very helpless but yet I cant ask for help I think people will think that I am 2 much asking for a lot. And the other thing that although I wanted and also longed for it for I long time but I know that it will never happen on me as I don’t deserve it whereby days and days people insult/ critisize mi and and told mi that I am no one 2 ask for so much. But why must the people I had good impression like my frends this situations always happen and they will usually compare me with my clever, pretty, fashionable but says that I am ugly, fat, stupid. Well I have to say that it hurts a lot and I know that no choice life has 2 be like that for me and I also wanted a life to be within my comfort but usually other people gets it.
I often ask myself why others no need to be so hard with life but I must and why do I have to always be the one going after other people pace but I can’t every time I wanted to do my thing but I can’t people are better than me…. Hmmmm sob
Well everything is killing my especially when I can’t work well maybe it is really time to rest and I think I got the disease called workaholic.
Well and I got to say I really envy people who are in love treasure each other don’t every time say the word break up easily and also try to give in to each other and don’t act childishly. And it is great to be loved by someone so don’t spoil it or take it for granted and I know that I haven’t got one so it is fated that I am the most lonely person on earth so don’t try it don’t feels good having the feeling that everyone had abandoned you.
P.S sometimes I felt that I can take it anymore… its alrite you call me a weakling but I m crying rite now at this time and they can’t be stopped keep falling out of my eyes =(
Seriously I donno why I am not in good mood 2day. I know that the whole world is busy so being alone is another easy thing for mi not that it is that easy to overcome loneliness is like people has their stuff to do and they can’t be with mi all the time. But I really don’t know how long more I can take this I really felt like giving up cause I really cannot stand living in pain.
I am very helpless but yet I cant ask for help I think people will think that I am 2 much asking for a lot. And the other thing that although I wanted and also longed for it for I long time but I know that it will never happen on me as I don’t deserve it whereby days and days people insult/ critisize mi and and told mi that I am no one 2 ask for so much. But why must the people I had good impression like my frends this situations always happen and they will usually compare me with my clever, pretty, fashionable but says that I am ugly, fat, stupid. Well I have to say that it hurts a lot and I know that no choice life has 2 be like that for me and I also wanted a life to be within my comfort but usually other people gets it.
I often ask myself why others no need to be so hard with life but I must and why do I have to always be the one going after other people pace but I can’t every time I wanted to do my thing but I can’t people are better than me…. Hmmmm sob
Well everything is killing my especially when I can’t work well maybe it is really time to rest and I think I got the disease called workaholic.
Well and I got to say I really envy people who are in love treasure each other don’t every time say the word break up easily and also try to give in to each other and don’t act childishly. And it is great to be loved by someone so don’t spoil it or take it for granted and I know that I haven’t got one so it is fated that I am the most lonely person on earth so don’t try it don’t feels good having the feeling that everyone had abandoned you.
P.S sometimes I felt that I can take it anymore… its alrite you call me a weakling but I m crying rite now at this time and they can’t be stopped keep falling out of my eyes =(
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