笑一笑，没什么事情过不了 =P

Today mood wasn’t so good after all, jus cried, tears flow, numb, heart had died.

I really don’t feel like I m mi anymore I m like a person without feeling anymore, crying has become my habit, heart has gone numb…

Where is the old mi??? I had been looking for mi in this world but it seems that I m lost… what will be my next step to my next road, my next choice???? Asking myself a lot of questions which I cannot answer them so wad is the point of asking???

Once someone keeping saying that I kept asking a lot of whys and hoped that I won’t asked them anymore…

Eyes were swollen and red but I felt nothing how I wished that someone could really understand how I feels but sad no say no one does even my family. I felt I was the only one who was abandoned and left behind; everyone has throw mi aside prevent mi from keeping up with them…

I think I rather choose to be emo n not a happy Angela no one does appreciate and when I left you I should have thought that I will never be happy I know it is not worth it but somehow I stll hurts badly like my heart was torn into million pieces.

Let mi tell you a story: once a gal was happy and was everyone’s laughing stock but she don’t mind cause she always keep herself in high spirits and also thinks that others are more important than her, but one day she found out that she was being taken granted by everyone and decide not to be happy anymore. =( so wad she puts others in the first place rather than herself no wan really does cherish all they could do was to hurt her badly.

Sometimes I felt that I really hate myself a lot but ppl told mi that if I were to hate myself how would I expect others to like but I came to a conclusion that nobody will ever like mi… NEVER EVER…

I had already tried to learn to like myself but hating is easier that loving I tried but afterall nothing good will come out. So wad if I m nice so wad if I do everything I needed to… everything is 2 much for mi I m really very tired… I jus wanna rest…