Ohh ya I need to keep myself more responsible in uploading the photos in my camera as they are still lying inside my camera.

I realli donno at this point of time wad am I excatly thinking. How come there is always so many last minute? How come there is sooo many empti-ness? How come everyone around mi is getting their own happpiness? How come I am always alone?

The only thing I wish for is that to spend my birthday with and looking forward to it. But who knows that there is always last minute changes than leading to disappointment... I hope everyday that you won't change of plans cause I really need a laughing seed.

P.S Promise mi?

Jus had another quarrelling wif my mum...
Why must she always be the right one, she still gt the rights to question mi when she is at fault...
I am somehow or rather the odd one out in the family
I did sometimes questioned my own birth status...
Why is the pressure always on the eldest child, if this were to happen I rather myslef was not being born at all...

P.S why is there always no one to stand by my side

I really appreciate the pickup on Tuesday... Many thanks to you... I am really happy and glad to hear that you are fine on Thursday, I almost cried out such foolish I am.

So many has happened... I was very angry when I saw you and you so-called loving gf, I was like WTF. How many girls do u still wanna play with ??? Couple of movie sessions this few weeks and I am really loving it. Not sure if I should looked forward to a big day nx week though.

Currently watching korean drama on Channel U.

Well gpa is out and guess wad I did improve by the score of 0.09... (hmmm hahaha abit pathetic to mi lah) There was this one thing I considered myself being stupid, I was so happy abt sth that I literally bang myself into the wall ... oppps pain pain ah...

Will update soon bah well here's a sneak peak of my 'little bf':

Isn't he so cute??

P.S Where is my love?

Sick again... took mc today and trying to complete my work stuff so that I can hand in on Wednesday. My weekend was still alrite sat last minute went out and caught the movie Hot Summer Days which was quite nice though. And guess wad I was so happy on Sat, he bought mi a pair of babies thanks really appreciated it =) will upload the photo when I am free. So tomorrow will be the same old routine again looking forward to see my kids in the kindergarden.

P.S my words carries no impact to you.

Well to start off with the few updates this weeks:

I began to realised that my workplace's politics is begining to surface. Total stressed just like a normal teachers cum babysitters.



Monday: Was a birthday celebration for Abgail (hey girl happy sweet 17th to you) well although I had celebrated that 3 years ago =) but love ya gal. I specially went to buy the hand designed cake from THE ICING ROOM but though the cake was not designed by cause I really had no confident afraid that I might spoil the cake T_T

Tuesday: Was an evening spent wif a laughing tree who kept giving laughing seeds >.< Very nice of Ian to fetch mi from my wrkplace and pei mi all the way to downtown to watch FU XING DAO. Funny show btw. Had BBQ CHICKEN for dinner pity that I did not bring m camera for camwhore session.

Wednesday + Thursday: Tution

Friday: Will be another movie session with Timonthy although we had not decided on the movie we are going to watch yet

P.S Wish you the best of life and hope nv to see you again

I am sorrie but I jus wanna run away again Like I used to do...
I really can't take it anymore, I jus wanna run and run until I had no more breath
I jus wanna shout till I had no voice left.

Why can't you just can't love mi the way I loved you.

Begining to fell emotional as I used to be again. Its like how come things are not going the way I wanted. It was just like a knife or something sharp that is being stabbed into my heart. I don't know what am I changing to be I don't know myself anymore. What is really wrong wif mi getting affected by small things.... OMG Going crazyyyyyy..... Can't sleep I reay feel super hopeless, unsecured, helpless. Is like why iszt anyone there for me or understand wad I am going through.

P.S regrets, regrets and more regrets sorry its my fault everything is my fault.

Ever wondered how it is like deleted from someone else's life.. That remains a question mark ??
So finalli I started updated my blog again after sometime..
Photos will be the next post I guess
Recently.

Here it goes:
I had a new job and am loving it----> it a pre-school full time teacher job
And on my first day of school was already an excusion trip with my babies to the UNDERWATER WORLD.
They are all so adorable, you can nv imagine that how nice and how satisfied when they put a smile on their face, or they stopped crying or even start to eat they food.

Apart from that I am also currently teaching tution of 2 kids... oh my I think I AM prepared for motherhood.
Well, but still I am unsure of what my future or my career/ study path holds.

Went sentosa yesterday and got sunburnt and it was more painful today compared to yesterday... ohh gosh

Well, up coming:
Ice Skating @ Kallang tomorrow
Wednesday will be mahjong session with peeps and last but not least..
Party timee willl crazy babes @ supper club =)

P.S I am so lucky that I realised that you were that kind of person.

Hey Peeps will update my blog as soon as possible....
My blog will be under going renovation soon...

OMG I HAD FALLEN IN LOVE WITH SUNFLOWER...

Twice in this week cry badly due to channel u's show:

(1) on christmas night 11.30pm- absolute boyfriend movie

(2) just now 9.30pm - 向日葵的约定 (The Promise)

Side note:

Someday I also want to see this sunflower field with you...

P.S those who watched, what do you think?

What a lonely little christmas...
Bet everyone is outside celebrating wif Bfs, Gfs, and frends...
But for mi?? None..
Where my frends go to.....
Man I jus hate it....

Hmm.. where should I start ?? happy things or sad things ??

Ever wondered why people surroundding you are so happliy attached

whereas u are just alone?

Ever wondered why attached people grumble all the time but

they don't that u envy them?

Ever wondered why the person you liked always talk to u

just because they want to know more about the person from u?

Ever wonder why u always help others

but when it comes to u need help from they, it always turns out to be a disappointment.

Anyway now moving on to so happy happenings:

I am already not sure what is happy, real or fake but still I am just glad that FYP is finally over and no more stress and tense up bodies anymore. I can't imagine that they will not be any FYP anymore and it's other people's turn to get stressed up for FYP.

Well my month was fruitful though, had quite a few outings with my galfriends (well will update more abt it), outings with fyp members and lastly just now went for a movie session wif yu shu... I just can't resist movies.....

photos will be up next but onli part of it due to consolidation of the photos not complete =)

I M SICK!!!!!!


fever + cough + sore throat + flu

Verse 1:He is approaching..from a far far far distance
how am i to express my shaking heart?
He.....Stole my heart from the very start and gave me an illness that i cannot recover from...

Chorus:I want to become a flowerpot I pray all the time
I want to become a flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a wordor expect anything
From time to time I'll receive his smile and careness
And just watch his sleeping face

Verse 2:He's leaving very far far far away
How am i supposed to soothethese falling tears?
He...Stole my heart from the very start
And gave me an illness that i cannot recover

Chorus:I want to become the flowerpot
I pray all the time
I want to become the flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a wordor expect anything
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness
And just watch his sleeping face
I want to become the flowerpot
That stands on his small window sill
Even if I won't be able to say a wordor expect anything
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and careness

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDEd3724ozc

Obviously you mind yet you keep on pretending you don't mind
Your actions are always showing you mind
How can I trust you when you are always acting so fake infront of me
I hate that you don't talk to me straight in the face
I don't need a friend who minds about talking and gossiping by other people

Current mood: disappointed, angry

Timeline:
Last week schedule:
Monday- Fyp + went out wif Prislin, Cecilia and Jac Jac
Tuesday- School
Wednesday- School + work
Thursday- School + work
Friday- School + work
Saturday- work + celebrating xinning b'dae till 10 am (sunday)
Sunday- slpt for 2 hrs + shopping for jac jac b'dae present + celebration at her hse till late
Note: I had to travel from boon lay back to pasir ris (JAC JAC YOU STAYED TOOO FAR LE HOR)

Coming up (12/10/09)-(18/10/09):
Monday- FYP + work
Tuesday- School +work
Wednesday- School +work
Thursday- School +work
Friday- School +work
Saturday- work
Sunday- dance + work

Finalli, back from a series of crazy happenings in Korea.
Took the most scariest ride of my life: the T-express
The T Express, debuted in 2006, is the first wooden roller coaster and the largest of any kind in South Korea. The T Express is the 6th longest wooden coaster in the world at 5,838 feet long. It is also the steepest, with the first drop inclined at 77 degrees.

=> Characteristics & Records of T Express (2008)
South Korea's first wooden roller coaster
World's steepest wooden roller coaster (77 degrees)
Drop : 57m (7th in the world)
Attraction time : 3min 00sec (the longest in Asia, 7th in the world)
Air time : 12 times (the most air times in South Korea)
Altitude : 56m (the highest in Asia, 3rd in the world)
Maximum Speed : 104km/h (the fastest in Asia, 8th in the world)
[+] Gravity Force : 4.5g
[-] Gravity Force : -1.2g

Crazy isn't it?

There are so many things that I had done till I couldn't remember them all but the most that I had learnt and appriciate the most is the communication and also spending time with the people during the trip.

OMG ..
Hello people I am back after soooo long of rest and preparation of a new life...
There are so many movies I wanna watch...
(1) The Time Traveller's Wife
(2) G-Force
(3) Coco Before Chanel
(4) Dance Flick (watched)
(5) Scandal's Makers
(6) I Love You, Beth Cooper
(7) Year 1
(8) The Proposal (2 times)

Crying in the late nite shouldnt be something I should do (but the fact is i am doing it rite now, in this second)
I realli cannot believe that why am I always facing so much upsets and so much obstacles. Compared to other people's lives they are far more luckier than mi jus that they still didn't realised and take it for granted.
Wanting sth is so hard
Often people have something they will ask for more, but compared to me do they actually know that I yearn for the things they already had.
Iszt really so diffcult... I jus dun understand why it is so unfair

P.S Losing control.... crying nites